When bored

 

When you get bored with your life, what do you do to amuse yourself?

 

Seemingly some guys (perhaps also girls) will try to look for women (and for girls look for men) to fall in love with. After some time, they realize that perhaps it is not a right thing to do, then they just ignore the women. 

 

Don't they realize that they hurt the women that they thought they were in love with before?

 

Why didn't they think further in the very first place in order not to hurt the innocent women?

 

PT56 11.23 23/04/2024

 

Ick

 

"I don't know how to show my love to you. I am too technical to do it." you excused yourself by saying this some time ago.

 

Don't you realize you were very good at it when you tried your best to get my attention? To reach my heart? And after you succeeded in it, you said you didn't know how to do it?

 

what the ...

 

PT56 11.26 23/04/2024

 

The One

 

Should we find someone to blame that people around the world are waiting for the moment to say to someone, "you are the one." Or, on the way around, to wait for someone compatible to your 'taste' telling you, "you are the one!"

 

Who should we blame that women around the world are looking for a Mr. Right?

 

Because, to some extent, to some people, without 'the one', their life seems not complete. 

 

PT56 12.35 23/04/2024

 

Don't love someone

 

Don't love too deeply until

 

You're sure that other person loves you with the same depth

Because the depth of your love today is the depth of your wound tomorrow

To love is to be vulnerable to give someone your heart and say

'I know this could hurt so bad, but I'm willing to be vulnerable and love you.'

 

(copas from somewhere)

 

and just like that I realized it is too late for me to step back.  

I remember one time I asked you if it would be better for me to leave you because we seemed to have no future for our love. You seemed unhappy with that and then sent me a broken-hearted song. This made me fragile. I could not break your heart. No.

However, with the course of time, my love is growing deeper and deeper and your presence in my life is like air for me. I cannot live without breathing the air -- you. 

PT56 11.19 14.09.2023

 

 

Fabulous

 

"The most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just fabulous." Carrie Bradshaw.

 

You know what darling, subconsciously, I have practiced what Carrie said above for some years in my life. I have been the main character in my relationship with myself. I have felt contented enough. Nevertheless, once in a blue moon, I am questioning myself whether one day I will find someone so irresistibly attractive to me that I will fall for him.

 

And out of the blue you came into my life.

 

At first you were just a nice newbie to have chat with. As time unveiled itself, our intense conversation made me addicted to your attention. Seemingly the universe answered my question whether one day I would find someone so compatible to my 'taste'. I have found you! Eventually!

 

However, as Carrie said in another occasion, "love which is not accompanied by exquisite pain is not worth having", I proved it that falling in love with you is not always about happiness. You are there. You once told me you were mine. But in fact it is not that easy to 'have' you. For myself.

 

and I remember once upon a time, you yourself said, "when we are truly in love with someone, we cannot avoid the possibility that we will feel hurt by the love."

 

Where will our love lead us?

 

MS48 17.41 13.09.2023