Do you feel contented in your life?
I did, before you came into my life.
Despite the fact that I realized there was a void in it.
After I let you go, the void was back. The contentment was still somewhere I don't know.
Why didn't it come back to me together with the void? Did you steal it? At the same time when you stole my heart?
ADA 15.20 20 September 2025
with you
in my life
my days seem much more exciting
however
on the contrary
without you
my life seems much more peaceful
:
Can I say peaceful is the opposite of exciting?
N.B.
the picture is one artwork exhibited at ART JOG 2025
PT56 09.46 10 July 2025
ILUSI
dan bungaku layu
saat kata-kata manismu nan penuh sembilu terucap
menusukku
berdarah-darah
barang kali satu saat nanti
(andai kau kembali)
rasa yang pernah kita kenal
yang pernah membawa kita ke satu hasrat yang sama
akan memilih makna yang berbeda
yang mungkin tak kan lagi kau kenali
kau barang kali bukan penjahat yang tak punya hati
hanya aku yang bermimpi menjadi penyair
sedang ringkih saat
kau melintas
dan lambaikan tangan
berharap kusediakan ruang dalam hidupku
untuk kau singgahi
Starbucks Anjasmoro 11.56 28 July 2024
I HATE YOU BUT I LOVE YOU
bagaimana jika kubayangkan
engkau merebut pensil dan kertas yang kupegang
agar bisa kau tulis sendiri rasamu padaku
dalam puisi-puisi yang kosa katanya
berjejalan di pikiranku
mungkinkah akan kau tulis
"my fragile other half
who always pretends to be tough
as mount Everest
just be yourself
I love you just the way you are."
nampaknya aku kian halu
setelah seharian kumatikan kuota internet
untuk menikmati rasa tidak jelas ini
"I hate you but I love you."
PT56 14.41 09/06/2024
