Expectation

 

I have killed my expectation on you in order to avoid being ignored, unwanted, and unloved.

 

It started on the day when you told me you believed in sins and you were afraid of going to hell as the consequences. So, a year ago why did you want to be with me, at the first place? As two people who were crazily in love with each other (back then), of course we couldn't avoid touching each other, hugging each other.

 

Was it merely because you wanted to make nostalgia between us, as once you said?

 

I have always wanted you but our meeting perhaps will lead you to sins.

 

I have always missed you but I know I had better stop expecting to be with you again.

 

I have tried my best but still I can't.

 

I am still struggling.

 

21.45 07.04.2023