Angkringan

 

"I love hanging out at angkringan!"

 

One time, out of the blue, you told me that.

 

"Angkringan is a neutral place where the haves and the haves not meet; not just them, but also the educated and the uneducated gather. There they can talk together about anything without thinking about their boundaries."

 

And I remember I used to question what was so special about angkringan? I could not enjoy the atmosphere, especially when it was crowded, many people were talking to each other, about random things. I could not really enjoy the kinds of food: gorengan -- I realize I had better limit the number of gorengan to eat; nasi kucing, I could not enjoy eating it, with very limited rice/lauk/vegetables.

 

"I know actually it is not healthy eating there, but I love it. In the past, when dating, I mostly went to angkringan."

 

 

 And … just like that, there was a pang in my heart. I could not stop myself from imagining how you used to date (whom? How many girls? how did you use to love your (ex) girls? bagaimana kah dulu kamu kasmaran padanya? Apakah seperti saat kamu kasmaran padaku tahun lalu? Menggombaliku betapa bahkan dalam tidur pun kamu memikirkanku? Bahwa cintamu padaku begitu dalam?

 

"Bagaimana membuat sticker di facebook? Bisakah kita hanya pakai facebook lite? Atau membuka facebook di web?" tanyamu.

 

"Oh, harus download aplikasi facebook yang full," jawabku.

 

"oh, yang full ya? Seperti cintaku padamu," katamu, merayuku.

 

Do you still remember those moments, darling?

 

MS48 18.30 14.06.2023

 

Jealousy

 

This morning while doing my household chores, I was listening to spotify with any random singer. Out of the blue, I heard an intro of Saigon Kick's song: I love you.

 

And just like that, I remember you! (oh no, I hardly ever forget you because you are always on my mind.) I remember your telling me about your curiosity about how Carl Jung thought, due to the lyric "I may not have the mind of Jung". This time I was curious whether the song would remind you of someone from your past?

 

And I remember your telling me -- jokingly -- that many rockers were in fact just melancholic creatures despite the fact that their music sounded 'wild'.

 

"Take Mr. Big, for example. There is this line in one of their song 'Just take my heart when you go. I don't have the need for it anymore." you once said this.

 

O my God! That was so cheesy! I was surprised to hear your saying that. Even in my wildest cheesy statuses on faceebok, I would never come to think that way, lol. Of course I would die if you take my heart, and I don't wanna die that way, lol. (both in the real meaning or in the figurative meaning, lol.)

 

By the way, darling. Did you ever send the lyric of Saigon Kick's song to a girl in the past?

 

MS48 18.08 14.06.23

 

Dare to Fall in Love?

 

In one old post of mine, a friend wrote a comment, "only the brave dare to fall in love mbak,"

 

That comment made me contemplate.

 

Indeed, what she said was right. Only those who fall in love will (probably) undergo broken-hearted if the relationship doesn't go well. If we don't fall in love, we will not get broken, will we?

 

Only those who fall in love will (probably) feel miserable due to wanting, missing the one they love, especially if their loved one lives far away.

 

Only those who fall in love will (probably) feel anxious and restless if their loved one doesn't give any news for hours.

 

Even to some people, those who cannot bear the pain end their life.

 

Anything else? Do you wanna add?

 

MS48 18.15 06.06.2023